||[Jun. 10th, 2005|01:05 pm]
I am so fucken ass stressed out and it is not funny any more. I need a counselor and Gibby said that she would get me and I need to talk with her now. It is not funny. I am way pass stressed out and I have a meeting in an hour at MCC. Let alone I don’t know how to get there. GOD FUCK this whole entire world. No one cares about. Me. I need to talk to Kathy but Kathy has had a fucken ass attitude to me and I don’t want to deal with her. I did not get enough hours for next week. I am tired. Hungry and what else. I don’t even know. Have not talked with Nicole yet this week. Miss her. I don’t wanna deal with this drama anymore. All I wanna do is go and cry my fucken eye out. No one cares about me and I don’t think anyone understands what I am going through. I don’t wanna graduate and I don’t wanna leave high school. I am so fucken afraid. I don’t wanna deal with this drama but I have to. I wanna run away and hide from this all. I had to pay $60 for my medicine today. Let alone I don’t have the money to pay the doctor. I owe him $60. Where is the fucken Medicaid when I need it. I want Brownie. I miss my doggie. And it is not funny. Where is Gibby. I need her. I wont make it through the week end. I know that at least if I don’t see her. I am in a middle of a fucken ass breakdown or blowup. I have so much shit going on in my life and I don’t wanna deal with it. I wanna say something about Tara but since this is going on the internet I cant because I told her that I would not tell chelanise about it. But honestly, I feel morally wrong if I don’t tell her but then I will feel morally wrong because I betrayed Tara. I need to tell Chelanise because Tara broke a rule and I don’t want myself to get in trouble because she broke it and then she might accuse me of doing it too, which I will never do. GOD FUCK THIS WHOLE ENTIRE WORLD. Just leave me alone. I need Gibby. Please some one help me. This is how I feel. STRESSED OUT. oh please help me now. Gibby I need you and you are not available for me. I am on the verge to a mental breakdown and not one notices or seems to care. I wanna switch wegmans but then I don’t. OH KATHY PLEASE CALL ME. Linda better of gave Kathy that note.
PEACE OUT FUCKEN ASS WORLD